i'm sick..

Justin made me chicken noodle soup last night... from scratch!
it's soo good... and I get to bring some to work today :D

I have decided that I should make more effort in school, since I get as much out of it as I want to (to some degree). I can't depend too much on asking Justin to study with me and other ppl since he doesn't really need to study to get decent grades. I need to be more independent and realize that I'm doing this for myself, maybe alittle bit for us, but definitely not just for him.
If I always complain nothing will get done.



VICKY DAY DREAMING AND IN SEMI DEEP THOUGHT from here on----------------------

I think God has really been good to me... when I do try, things DO happen.. and I don't think it's always because I tried. There are plenty of people who aren't so lucky. I need to be better... and I need to have a plan. Some people think life wouldn't always go your way either you plan it or not.. it's TRUE. but I think that I need to plan to have some expectations.. and I keep myself FLEXIBLE at the same time. so even if the reality doesn't go like my plan, at least I set a bar for myself, and I shouldn't land too far from that goal, right? (at least I hope not, LOL)

Sometimes I just want to be BOLD in life. I want to leave everything I have and go travel. I think I might do that with Justin if I change jobs in a few years. I'm so going to save up like crazy right now and when I do have a decent break, go somewhere. I would love to finally go on a missionary that lasts for more than a week. That does take alot of courage though, I think. But that's what I would aim for... none of that "what if I run out of money? what if I can't find a job? what if, what if..." crap. I am not gonna be tied down.. follow the social norm.. be one of the 8-5 crowd, and 10 years down the line wonder where my life has gone, and what have I achieved.. and be zombie like.. following the same routine and purpose-less.